Sample me?

I see so many gorgeous women with guys that I would deem unworthy of the title and position of consort. My entire life, I looked for love. I was that guy that was going to be different, the one that never cheated, never took any fleeting feelings of lust to heart, treat my woman like a queen and so on. Then, the woman whom I fell in love with did exactly that to me. I have long since been caught in my mind. Playing out the scenario over and again. Wondering why. How. Etc...... I think about it now and I just wish I could've been present during the affair. I wish I could've tasted his dick after he came in her. I wish I'd have gone in next, pounding my wife's pussy and cum leaking out of her. To have her take me into her mouth before I came, with my cock dripping her juices and his cums. Then, I'd have killed the man, now, I want him to take her while I watch. When is it my turn?